FOUR!!!

Well it's way past time for a new post! I've got several lingering in my mind actually. There's been SO much happening in our home these past 3 months. And it takes me a little while to process things so I tend to wait to write about them.

First things first! Let's start with the REALLY EXCITING news!

I'm pregnant again! Baby #4 will be gracing our home with its' presence in November. We were pretty shocked at first and now we are absolutely over the moon with joy & anticipation! The story goes something like this...

It was a Friday morning and I was awake unusually early for this night owl! Everyone else was still asleep so I got cozy on the couch to spend some time with the Lord. I had been meditating on Phillipians 3-4 these past few months & loving it!

Toward the end of my quiet time, my thoughts began to drift toward coffee..........

Oh how I LOVE Friday - my most favorite day of the week cause Heath is off! But he will need to still go pick up pastries from Scratch and take them to Sola. Oh good, he has to go to Sola anyway this morning so it will be easy for him to bring me home a coffee. Hmmmm, what sounds good this morning???? Cinnamon vanilla latte......no. Agave Latte........no. Plain latte.....no. A Mocha.......no, disgusting. But I usually like Mocha's. Do I want something iced? No. Why does nothing sound good right now. That's so weird. It's the perfect day for coffee to sound good because it will be so easy for him to just bring me something home. Maybe I just want a plain coffee. Oh, no thank you. That sounds awful!

So I decide to check in on facebook & posted my status....

March 11 @ 6:21 am

Perplexed by my lack of desire for coffee lately (Kaarin & Emma like this)

Dede: pregnancy alert! (Dacey likes this)

Amy: yep :)

Kelly: oh girl, that was my sign! :)

Gayle: better hit the pharmacy section

Debi: I say the same thing, you're pregnant!

ME: no, no, no I wasn't even thinking about that! But that's not it. It's probably more along the lines of over consumption.

Gayle:Call it what you want, but.... :)

Dacey: LOL, I asked Heath about this today!

Wait an hour. See a few of the responses.

My thoughts....

People would say that. They have no idea! There is absolutely NO possible way that I am pregnant. Ooooohhhhh, now it's going to start rumors so I need to nip this one really quickly. That's crazy! Why would they think that? If they only knew how almost impossible that actually is!!

I leave for a run. I've been running about 3.5 miles, 3-4 times a week. So I could not figure out why I was so sluggish and struggling to gain momentum. A couple of random times the thought of pregnancy crossed my mind because of people's responses. But I dismissed those thoughts pretty quickly. The closer I got to home, the more I was thinking about it though. I just felt so "off." And why was I so unusually tired this week? We've had a lot of company in & out of our house. I was sure that was it. And the Lord knows that this would be the absolute worst time in the whole entire world for me to be pregnant. I mean, if ANYONE knows how crazy the timing would be, it would be HIM - so He wouldn't do that!

When I got home, Heath and Natalie were awake. The thought crossed my mind again...what if I am pregnant? I would need to know right away so I could get progesterone so I don't miscarry. I mentioned something to Heath. He pretty much blew me off. I told him I would probably run out to the store soon to buy a test. He asked, if I would stop at Fresh & Easy to pick up some Hummus for him. :)

Natalie and I left for CVS. We went in and bought the 2 pack of generic tests. As we were walking down the aisles I felt myself getting really nervous. My hands were shaking and my thoughts were racing!!!!

Why was I SO TIRED this week when I was volunteering at Kate's school for Field Day??? I was only there for 2 hours. I could hardly stay awake. Oh yeah, and then that dad looked over at me and told me to "Smile!" Why did he say that? I'm always smiling. And if I am not smiling for one time in my life because I'm really tired, then leave me alone. But why was I so tired when I went to bed 3 times this week before 8:30pm? That's SO strange for me! I'm always awake until at least 11:30 pm.

We buy the tests and drive across the parking lot to Fresh & Easy. By now I feel like the walls are closing in on me. If I was pregnant, I would be totally shocked. I've never been caught off-guard before. We were always "trying" in the past. This would be so weird. I don't even know if I would do well with 4 kids. My car won't fit one more person!!!!!

We park, walk in and I immediately start looking for the bathroom. I had to know RIGHT AWAY! Like, IMMEDIATELY! The box of tests was in my purse and I was ripping the packaging off as we were looking for the bathroom. I probably forgot to lock the door and peed on that stick as quick as I could. Natalie was totally oblivious as to what was happening. I set the stick on top of the tp holder and waited.......But not for long! 2 LINES! Yep! That's what I saw! I called Heath from Fresh & Easy to tell him. I think he was shocked.

I hardly remember looking at hummus and checking out...or driving home.

I got in to see my doctor within 2 hours. He confirmed that I was indeed pregnant & got me my meds.

Heath & I verbally processed out loud with one another for the next several days. It was exciting! We were excited! It just took a few moments to settle in.

It's soooo bizarre to me how in one moment I could not even fathom the idea of being pregnant with #4. I just hadn't even seriously considered it. And in the very next moment I would never want it to be any other way!